To Baby or Not to Baby

That is the question...
Well in our house anyways.

A month ago I would have said not to baby without a doubt.
This week (and last week, shhhh) I have been having insane desires twinges of wanting another baby.
I think partly due to the fact that I am really starting to
realize how big my girls are getting.
I think about all the reasons not to have another baby
and they seem really selfish.
Which isn't completely a bad thing, I mean I am the one
who will be the most affected by another baby,
in the early stages at least.

Financially we can afford another baby,
and we certainly have enough love to share.
And we will have 2 very willing to smoother help
big sisters that have been asking for a little brother.
The hubby keeps nagging reminding me that I
am denying him a boy.
(Like there is a guarantee we will get a boy)
I still think about how incredibly painful awesome it would be to
actually get to experience labor and delivery.
I know crazy right.
I kinda felt jipped outta all that good stuff
stuff you really don't want captured on video.
It would be cool to have a big family
which in turn will give me more grandkids to spoil
in my golden girl years.

BUT

Then reality sets in and I am stabbed in the heart reminded
of my mommy insecurities.
I work,
outside the house.
And granted I have a cool schedule that allows me LOTS
of time off in the summer,
when I do work I am gone
all.day.long.
Some days I feel like I am already not there enough with my girls.
I worry that if we add another baby/kid that
I will be spread even further.
I already seriously stress think about how we will manage sports,
school, homework, work and the girls
aren't even in kindergarten yet.
Add another peanut in the mix and I we
may implode.
Besides that my plants are finally starting to
grow back the leaves the girls pulled off
and ate when they were little.
I am not sure they can endure another baby's wrath.

I kinda feel like we are under a weird deadline too
which makes it even more stressful for this momma.
The girls will be 5 soon, so there will
be a minimum of 5 years between them
if we got pregnant right away.
Do we really wanna start all over now
just when the girls are becoming
self sufficient????

Then I start looking at my cuter than cute girls
and begin to imagine how adorable
a little Tony boy would be.
Would he have the same blonde curls as the girls
or darker thick hair like my handsome hubby?
And I secretly have another name for a little girl picked out
if we had another girl.
I think if I did decide to open the baby maker
back up I would have to have a guarantee of
my choice of names.
You think that would fly???

I was hoping that writing all this out for all of you me to see
would help me make this decision easier
but I don't feel any different than when I started...
all sorts of conflicted.

Funny Ph(F)rases Friday

Is back by popular demand...
(ok only one person asked)

While out shopping
Charlotte: Mommy I have to go pee pee.
Me: Ok let's go.
Charlotte: You're the smartest mommy
cuz you always know where the potty is.

It's good to be the smartest at something.


Driving in the car
Charlotte: Ewww Momma Tanner (the dog) tooted.
(starts to laugh)
Addison: It's not nice to laugh at Tanner when he toots.
He prolly had a tummy ache and now he feels better.

Good to know she cares about how people feel even dogs.


Packing up Stuff for Goodwill
Charlotte: Why are you putting my toys in that bag?
Me: These are the old toys you don't play with anymore, so
Mommy is giving them to Goodwill.
Charlotte: Who is Goodwill? Why do we have to give them
our stuff? (starting to cry)
Me: Goodwill collects toys and clothes that we don't need
anymore and gives them to people that
don't have enough money to
buy new clothes and toys.
Charlotte: I don't wanna give away my old toys,
(fully crying now)
I don't have any money and
I just need my toys so bad Mommy.

Note to self. Pack up for Goodwill at nap time next time

Wordful Wednesday

So we took off Charlotte's training wheels to see if she
wanted to try and learn to ride without them.
Not that we are forcing pushing her to take her
training wheels off before she is ready.
But a little nudging can't hurt right???

I mean she looks happy.
Total deceiving smile on that girl.

BUT...
As soon as daddy went in the garage to get another tool she took
it upon herself to put her training wheels back on.

Head on over to Parenting by Dummies for more fun.

Do Not Put...

I have been feeling completely un less than motivated lately.

At first I thought it was because I had gone back to work and was wasting using all my creative energy.

I find myself having these funny ideas for posts at times when I can’t get them down and when I do have the time to sit down in front of my computer I go blank.

I know, you must be wondering how could a mom of such crazy cute twins ever run out of funny things to blog about. Shocking I know.

It’s definitely not lack of material. Some days I can’t believe the things that come out of the girls never ending sound machines mouths.

I really wanna be better about posting. The girls are getting so big and my whole reason to start blogging was to journal our day to day mayhem life.

I mean seriously how can I not find something to say about pictures like this.

If my girls were small enough I would have shoved placed them gently into that bag just for a photo op. I have been known to do such things.

Wordful Wednesday

Wordful Wednesday is like Wordless Wednesday,
only WITH words.
It’s for those of us that can’t contain the chatter,
but in a good way.

Nakie snack break with the cousin Brycer.
I seriously adore these three peanuts.
I would totally steal him if I could.


Head on over to Parenting by Dummies for more WW.

Back to School

School started back up for the girls.
They have a new class at a new facility with a new teacher.
I was a little (ok A LOT) nervous about how this would go.
Then end of last year didn't go so well.
The girls started crying every time we would leave
just like the beginning of the year.
It was unpleasant to say the least.

But I guess 3 months makes a big difference
in the life of 4 year old.
They LOVE school.
They LOVE their backpacks.
And their teacher.
And their new friends.

Mommy cried when i dropped you off but
it only lasted a minute because I was so happy
that you were smiling and waving goodbye
as you ran off to join your new friends on the carpet.

I took the girls shopping for a first day outfit.
This is what they picked out.
So cute.

New backpacks.

Walking into their classroom.

Name tags.

Kinda self explanatory.

Again, haha.
Apparently they fought over whose backpack was whose

according to their teacher.
So this super saavy mommy sewed
(and by sewed I mean ironed on)
their first initial onto their backpacks.
Problem solved!

You are growing up so fast.
I still cannot believe you are going to be 5 on your next birthday.
5!!!
That is amazing to me.
I still see little babies when I think about you but you really
are becoming big girls.
My little ladies.

Wordful Wednesday

Wordful Wednesday is like Wordless Wednesday,
only WITH words.
It’s for those of us that can’t contain the chatter,
but in a good way.


Who needs those pricey serene day spas when
you can have your own private mud bath
in the comfort of your own backyard?


Head on over to the circus for more WW.